Kritarth (Kim): You stressed that I should meditate every day.
In order to purify the system one has to meditate. I feel that I am not
meditating well. Is there such a thing as a good or a not good meditation?
Meditation is a state of consciousness
tomato can be good or bad. A meditation would be good or bad if meditation
was a thing. Meditation isnt even a thing, so why good meditation
and bad meditation?
Start with some technique
Meditation is not good. Meditation is not bad.
Knowingness is not good. Knowingness is not bad.
If I see a maala, or a plate it is knowingness. Things
can be good, bad, usable or unusable, but meditation is not good or bad.
Meditation is a state of consciousness.
Human beings dont know what meditation is. They dont
know what sleep is, but they sleep. They dont know what dreams are, but
they dream. They dont know what wakefulness is, but they remain awake.
Yet they keep saying that they know what sleep, dream, and waking states are.
In the same way they dont know meditation, but they
started saying, "Meditation is happening and meditation is good. My waking
state is good whenever everything is favourable. My dreams are good when there
is the Garden of Eden. My sleep is good when there is no disturbance."
You have to know who says good and who says bad. In satsang you
are led from your mind and intellect level to Sat which is truth. Your
idea of truth is different and you want to hear the correct meaning of truth.
You have heard Truth alone is and just let it pass.
Human beings dont investigate words and their meanings.
Whatever they hear, they think is true.
The mind takes anything useful to be true, even words and
thoughts: One says "My words. My thoughts. My views, and they are right." You
have a mind that thinks that even meditation should be good meditation or meditation
should be bad. Meditation has nothing to do with what we are doing. Meditation
is so that I should have a little peace of mind! [laughter].
Meditation is filling the body, but it is not known.
Amaram Hum Madhuram Hum makes your worries fly
You have to start with some technique. Technique not the truth.
Walking on the road is just a technique, but it is you who reaches Akhara Bazaar
[a local market district].
We meditate with a definite purpose. Nobody has time for himself
to think properly. Whenever they have time, they worry. In order to have time,
we have to remove the field of worries. In meditation worries recede. They are
not there. They may come again, but while meditating worry is not there.
We use a technique, a word, a sound, and sound helps to remove worries.
As your yes becomes redundant when you say no
your no becomes redundant when you say yes. Power
is in the word.
You can do it anywhere
Amaram Hum Madhuram Hum.
Amaram Hum Madhuram Hum, Amaram Hum Madhuram Hum is a technique,
a phrase that is given to you. You have heard about goodness, godliness, virtue,
kindness, accommodation, and growth, and you know their meaning. In this way,
the sound Amaram Hum Madhuram Hum is devised so it wont convey any meaning
other than Amaram Hum Madhuram Hum. Yes doesnt convey no.
You cannot change no by saying its opposite, yes.
Amaram Hum Madhuram Hum makes your worries fly. What remains?
The worriless state. Have you ever checked the quality of the worriless state?
Worrilessness is reached in meditation, and the moment you come onto the level
of activity of the mind, you are again worried. For a few minutes you are in-between.
After that you are the same person.
Meditation is not needed if you know that when you close the
eyes, it is not the eyes which are seeing. But the intellect says, "I see
darkness." Eyes are not there to see! When the eyes are closed they dont
see forms. If some form is visible, you cannot compare it to darkness.
You say that sunlight is bright and night is dark. That is
a humans understanding. You dont want to give up your idea because
you dont understand that there is no darkness anywhere.
Bats see in the night. They fly in the night and eat your
apples. Scientists say bats have a beam that lets them see. Who gives them that
beam? Why wasnt that beam given to you? You are not worse than a bat!
When you close the eyes it is meditation, Self, Aatmaagyaan, Amaram
Hum Madhuram Hum. You dont need to come to Kullu for days and days
and close your eyes. You can do it anywhere and you are there.
Meditation is the state of easiness
But know the quality of it!
Does it amount to be duality? Nowhere! It is Oneness. Oneness
is always with you and Oneness permeates your whole body. But you think darkness
is in your head. Where does thinking come from? It comes from the space. When
you close the eyes, that is the source of your thinking. But you are not trained
to believe it and I am not an expert to convince you.
Close the eyes and whatever you see I say is not darkness.
But you ask, "In what way do I differ from Swami-j? Swami-ji,
do you see red light or white light?" because for you no darkness means
light. For me, no darkness means Pure Consciousness which
never becomes dark!
Many people recommend eating dried prunes. But you have to
know what they produce. What does meditation produce? If it produces worries
in you, for Gods sake drop it.
Kritarth: I have the idea that if my thoughts have gone, and time
has stopped, then that meditation seems more valuable.
Swami-ji: It seems that you are attached to your good understanding.
You say to me, "I am uneasy when I meditate." Meditation is the
state of easiness. Close the eyes and you will feel easy because your eyes
will not be seeing all the time. Half an hours energy consumed by
your eyes is conserved and your body feels easy.
Meditation happens when the space arises. When fever is not
in your body, you are free from fever. The word meditation is a suggestion to
unfold another state which is hidden, which is not worries. So the worriless
state is meditation. But you think meditation is that by closing the eyes and
simply repeating Amaram Hum Madhuram Hum, easiness should come.
There is a difference in communication. You use your system
and call it perfect. I use my system and call it imperfect, yet I use it. That
is the difference in the human head. Through deep sleep you get relief from the
field of your exhaustion. Through meditation you get relief from the field of
worries. But that is not the description of what meditation is. When you experiment
[Swami-ji closes the eyes] do you see worries?
Swami-ji: There must be sometime when worries are not. It means
that half the time in meditation is worriless and half the time it is full
of worries. You want the worriless state. You dont know why you produce
those thoughts which worry you. Then what is the reliance on your intellect?
But you rely on your intellect and think you will be able to stop worries.
Someone may try to stop the growth of their hair, but they cannot. Why
cant you change your hair colour?
The worriless state
In meditation your view is altered. If you dont refine
your view, then you will always think that worries will not subside whether you
meditate or not.
Chaitanyas worries have gone. I see you both as the Being. I respect
and love you both. But you introduced to me the idea that you have worries.
So I have a concern with you that you should be worriless because you think
that you have worries and Chaitanya thinks that she doesnt have worries.
Your constitution is such that it produces worries without your invitation.
Who doesnt invite worries and has no power over worries, yet worries
Kritarth: The mind, Kim, doesnt want worries.
Swami-ji: You are aware of your mind, but the mind creates worries,
so why do you say that you dont want worries when you are only the
Kritarth: Then you say that I am not that.
Swami-ji: Then correct your language and say that you dont
have worries. It needs evolution.
The water and the waves
Waves are coming and coming, When they dont subside
and another wave doesnt arise, it is the same wave.
In the field of Pure Consciousness waves have been coming
and coming and they are of awareness and consciousness. [Swami-ji holds a spoon].
A wave now arose. My eyes see the spoon.
You have not been told that when your eyes see things and
forms, they carry consciousness with it. Whenever consciousness is not in the
eyes, you may open them, but you dont see anything. So Consciousness is
free. That is your naturenot the consciousness with your eyes.
When consciousness is with your eyes, you see the flower and
the whole mechanism knows the flower was offered by Gil, and then Gils
father, and Gils fathers father and the universe appears before me.
He just offered a flower and the whole universe appears in my mind.
Why is it that, in my wave of consciousness, the whole is?
In your wave of consciousness is Kims mind. That is
to be expanded. Now you say, "Yes, there are no worries in me." My
stomach has carrots and radishes, but radishes and carrots are not within me.
Even the stomach is not within me.
In this way, understand that waves are not with water.
I deal with the human consciousness that identifies waves and water, but
they are not with the water. Dikpal argues: if waves are not with the water,
are they with a cloth? Then I have to agree with him that waves are coming
from the water in the water. His mind divides water and waves as separate,
therefore, waves are different from water. That is a human being. When
you say that you are worried it is saying you are the wave of water. When
I stirred your consciousness and subsided your first understanding, then
you knew, "Oh yeah. Worries are not in me."
Slowly, meditation builds
Being free, you will be able to watch your worried mind the
way you watch the worried mind of a friend. Have that much separation.
Slowly, meditation builds. It is not a matter of one or two days. These
people have spent twenty-nine years meditating. We call meditation another
state, Turiyafreedom. Human beings have never utilized it.
They wake up and begin to smoke and eat.
When you meditate, who is meditating?
Keep remembering with faith, and then you have not to work
for twenty years. Just know that you are the one in whom worries dont exit.
You are the one in whom change doesnt exist. Identify with that. It is
not blind faith. It is perfect faith as you have checked that you are not dwelling
within the body, yet you have to use it daily and show your passport to the authorities
when you fly. You have a double awareness. Many become millionaires, but that
doesnt mean that they cannot use one dollar. You can be in the samaadhi state
and you can use your little worries and concerns.
Our study is of nature. Nature is of the mind. Mind will have billions
of waves and there are six billion people and the mind is so powerful.
That is the nature of the mind.
Conclude, once and for all, that you are forever free
You, by sheer desire of your own, want to love this nature
by identifying with it and permeating it. If you become a worried person, then
you experience worries.
Start using the language, "Swami-ji, I watch. I really
am the Watcher. I am fully awakened to the fact that whatever mind I have is
worried and I dont like to be worried."
You will become a Karm Yogi. You will do the
same thing that I doyou dont want to see anyones mind worried.
You will start here, with you. You are the one who sees the car and know you
are not the car. In your seeing, discrimination is there.
When you meditate, who is meditating? Not the I. I am sleepingnot
the I. I woke upnot the I.
You can say, "I woke up." That is the language.
Nobody says, "There is a bed with four legs on which
the body is sleeping and a rat came and the body woke up."
We say, "I am happy. I am worried. I understand. I dont
understand." It is perfect. But once you have come to know that you
are using that I for names sake, you came to know that I am I,
and you dont find yourself anywhere in this body, then conclude, once and
for all, that you are forever free.
Today you came to know that worry is not in you. Meditate for
a while. This is simple meditation. You have closed the eyes and are deep in
meditation, just by closing the eyes. You cannot expect the result of it right
away. Thoughts are going on. In two minutes you will know that no thoughts have
been recorded. You will hear the birds sound, but you should not think
that you are worried.
You have the power to create the worry: "Why are these
bids singing? Someone should drive them away because we are meditating!"
If the birds were not in you, how could you hear them? Start
expanding. The birds sound will be much clearer. When we talked, we didnt
hear the birds. In meditation your awareness is heightened.
I will be quiet.
20 November 1999