(Sonia): In my awareness, there seems to be a sense of knowingness that
I'm trusting, and it seems to be true and real. But in some situations
a sense of lack in some sort of knowing, and I feel I need to complete
and mature my full awareness. I was wondering if you could point me to
some sort of study or whatever it is that I need to do to hold the awareness
that I am that true freedom . . .
Swami Shyam: Any study that you are doing which is not strengthening your
awareness of the Self or the truth should be reduced. What subjects have you
Gaura: I have studied some Patanjali and my thought is that, when
I go to Canada, I would like to study more on this topic.Bu I haven't done
much study in other areas [such as geography, social sciences, science, mathematics,
etc.] because when I was growing up, book learning was not encouraged. So
I feel a sense of lack there.
Swami-ji: Patanjali is just perfect. I wanted to lead your attention
to the fact that your ancestors or community leaders were right that book
learning can get you more confused than ordinary face-to-face experiences.
But we continue reading and writing because we have to continue living on
Be sincere to the Self
But a sense of dualitysense of othernessis
created by that pattern of study where duality is important.
For example, suppose you have two brothers in politics and
one is elected for the government and another represents the opposition. Each
one has to speak for his party and against the opposing party. So not only to
they have to speak about what suits them, but they have to contradict the other.
That is duality. And in all the subjects, you will find this duality. That's
why human behaviour is mostly politically oriented. You can call it politics,
or you can call it duality.
The way of human beings is that they stand for what they think and contradict
what others think. That kind of study does not help over here.
All are friends together
Here one has to be sincere to the Self who abides in every
being your brother, your sister, your mother, your father, your friends.
The same Self which has made their bodies has made your body. But your attention
is deepermost people's understanding is a gross understanding of name and
form. This attention on name and form does not allow a person to be tuned into
Patanjali is leading you first towards the mind, then samaadhi, [definition],
and ultimately kaivalya [the liberated state].
The samaadhi state unifies. Mental states and mental
discussions create duality, and that makes you separate. Studying something which
is only describing the surface level of objects and their descriptions does not
help in holding your awareness of the truth about which you just spoke.
In those situations where you become dualistic, you lose sight
of the inner being of everyone. That you must know by now, but what I want to
say it is: practicewhenever you forget!
Over here, it has been the most wonderful evolution of friendship and
oneness because everyone has now developed the awareness that you are that
Shyam which permeates your eyes, permeates your body. That Shyam, that
blueness, that consciousness, that existence is not only light but the
source of light
Everything starts from Swa
And with that awareness, what happens? All of you are friends
together! It is family. Wherever you gogo to Canada or go to Englandyou
will find that commonality, that 'Shyam-ness.' You are friends together. Why?
Because you respect the 'Me' in others, and that you never forget.
That 'Me' is not only the form, Swami Shyam. If you
call 'Me' a photograph of me, or a photograph of you, then you have not seen
'Me.' That 'Me,' that energy, is Space, and it permeates all the
forms. But that Space or pure consciousness is lost when this body is taken to
the world of forms. It is supposed to be lost: you cannot live together
with people without the knowledge of divisionthe divided consciousness
of I and you.
But your ambition is that you should not fall short of that
Oneness. For that, you have to practice. It is not essential that you have to
engage in great studies. You just hold this awareness. Even while you are eating!
The same essence of which the food is made, you are made!
Essence and essence are one. And this can be practiced in
It is good that you read books and so on, but remember my
words, and the knowledge contained in them: if you are reading a book, know that
the book is made of paper, paper is made of wood, wood is made of fire, and fire
permeates you, fire permeates the book. That's the study.
Patanjali also says studySwadhyayathe study of 'Swa' [Self].
Once you have come to know the nature of Swa, then you can have Swadhyaya.
So far as daily reminders are concerned, Patanjali is good!
The English word 'study' doesn't give the right meaning. Everything begins
with SelfSwa. So Swa is first. A child cannot get to
that. For him, food is first, then later, clothes, play and toys. He is
developed in the forms, the elements.
But if you can see the essence in all the elements, that thou art. Then you
are seeing the essence of your elemental body. That is the study.
And you will never forget.
| Patanjali: On Study
Swadhyaya is constant study consisting of watching one's
own actions, removing all weaknesses, and attaining the true Knowledge
in which one is happy at every moment. Swadhyaya takes the
form of reading books concerning Truth, listening to people who
speak Truth, repeating the name of God, and knowing that God is
always taking care of you. If one stays busy thinking, acting,
and becoming happier and purer in his everyday life, then he is
said to be following the path of Swadhyaya.
Sutra 1, Saadhan Pad,
Patanjali Yog Darshan
Essence rendered by Swami Shyam
Becoming a totally new person
Pushpa: Sometimes I've noticed in my system, either here in Satsang
or in any kind of interaction, that my focus is lost. I may be paying attention
and absorbing, but then it goes. And I'm wondering especially for Satsangwith
increased meditation, will the ability to hold my focus be strengthened?
Swami-ji: Yes. Because then you won't mind such a loss of focus! [Lots
Pushpa: When the mind is there, I mind very much. [More laughter.]
Swami-ji: Yes. Actually it is a new realm that is opened after meditating.
You become a different persona totally new person. Then, you no longer
copy your old ways. This is what meditation does.
Why do you have to do the job of focusing your attention on
unnecessary things or projects? Automatically, if you have meditated, your focus
on this world of forms is lost.
As you advance in the unfoldment of awareness, you have to
see how much time you need for yourself. Then your attention on meditation, which
means the Self will get you unfocussed on things which create uneasiness. You
need easiness. And easiness is not on the mind field. Easiness is only in the
field represented by the space of meditation.
So if don't want the focus of attention to be on easiness,
then drop meditation, and be like everyone else.
But if you meditate, you will be divine. And as divine, you
will no loger have the concern about what you have lost, or what you have gained.
You have enough. God's energy is such that it fills the whole infinity.
| The undeniable results of meditation
Peace is not found on the level of interactions. On the level of interactions,
the mind develops some awareness of where the other persons are, what
their motives are for interacting. But you are the only one who can
study yourself. In interactions, you find growth of the mind. In reducing
the interactions, you find more time for studying your own interaction
with the Self and mind.
So, there is meditation!
The one who has meditated more is healthy, is easy, is peaceful,
doesn't like to create bad dramas, lives longer, is happier, and doesn't have
a complaining mind.
So add 'no interaction' which means meditation in your life
several times during each daytime and nighttime period.
The Exquisite Reality of the Blue-Black Space
Nilima (Nina): I have a question about meditation.
In the last couple of days, I have had two very different
kinds of happenings in meditation. The first was a kind where I just disappeared
completely for a long period of time. It was quite strong and it was the kind
of meditation where, when I came out of it, I had the sense that I do not exist
in any way except as transparent purity.
And then the next day I was meditating and, at the end of
the meditation, I rubbed my hands over my eyes, and as soon as I did that, the
space got incredibly dark and blueso dark and blue that I couldn't believe
any more that I was outside in the sunlight. It was very strong and very different
from anything that I could expect. And I had the feeling that this is Krishn,
this is Shyam.
The two were so different that I was wondering afterward which
sort of meditation is telling me more about my own true nature. They both seemed
perfect, they both seemed absolute, and yet they both seemed so different . .
Swami-ji: There are levels of understanding. But for the one who is
Self, or Krishn, or Shyam, there is no level. Beyond that, there could
never be any level.
In the second meditation, it was you, as Krishn, as
Self, watching Self, knowing Self, therefore, it was not Nina. But Nina, describing
it now, is Nina.
At the time of meditation, there was no trio [trio is a word
Swami-ji uses to describe the world of subject, object and the interaction of
the two; such as seer, seen and seeing], and no different levels of light. If
you understand now, it is not the understanding of the mind, because you cannot
produce that extremely dark blue light by thinking or experience or talking.
When trio is gone, it happens. When trio is built, then that
light has levelssubject level, object level, seer level, seen level, and
seeing level. But there it is called Absolute Bliss Being where there is no division,
and that permeates the whole universe. At that point, there is no division between
blue light and white light. It is the same. Having realized that, it doesn't
fall into the category of comprehension or understanding, so the word realization
People don't understand what realization is. But through meditation
it becomes clear. So there are no levels now. You have seen that. So you are
not to worry which part should give you the knowledge of what.
In the meditation, ahankar [individual ego] was gone
completely, so you said, 'I was no more.' We refer to ourselves as 'I' with this
status [points to himself], which is ahankar. In meditation, ahankar goes. In
deep sleep, it doesn't actually go away and it comes back. In meditation, when ahankar goes,
the very Self comes and Self acts. Ahankar is dissolved. That's called
surrenderno more 'I.' Having this experience, you know you are that Krishn Space,
Shyam Spacethese are just names for that direct experience. Direct experience
[he points to a vase of flowers] means that mind is not seeing the flowers. It
is the same who is seeing himself the same.
So it cannot be said that 'I' saw blue-blackness or 'I' saw
Shyam Space. The very blue-blackness has seen blue-blackness. That is it. But
to describe it, you have to become a human being.
Nobody will know what you have seen. When others hear 'blue-blackness,'
they will hope for blue-blackness and they will have their own concept.
And that is good, for they will continue and work with that.
8 March 2000